On the Swings Again

[l33tminion]

My mood has been up and down a lot lately. On the one hand, things have been going very well. On the other hand, I've been really conscious of all my social failures. I feel unloved, worry that I'm unlovable. Sometimes I wish I could be alone without feeling lonely, and then I feel guilty about that.

Objectively, things are better, not worse. I guess one way to look at it is that I'm doing a much worse job of ignoring my long-term problems. While that's not totally a bad thing, it still feels pretty awful.

I'm all right, though. Things are all right.

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[http://users.livejournal.com/_skye_/]

This is when a best friend would come in handy, someone to reassure but not be all over you: someone you can feel free to not pay attention to, you know, but they're there. And you'd do it for them, obviously. I sometimes feel like it's harder to find friends like this than it is to find a significant other.

Good luck keeping your head above water. You're not alone, I know you know, but really -- aren't we all? Yep. Even I, surrounded by people 24/7.

[fantwurm.livejournal.com]

Poor Samuel. Keep your head up and realise how much better you're doing than Solomon.
At least if you're thinking about it, you can make an effort to consciously improve. And it's really not that bad.
Did you know James Madison might have had some social disorder? I learned that in APUSH

[l33tminion]

I'm amused at how you can't resist taking a dig at Solomon.

*nods*

Yay APUSH!