On the Swings Again

[l33tminion]

My mood has been up and down a lot lately. On the one hand, things have been going very well. On the other hand, I've been really conscious of all my social failures. I feel unloved, worry that I'm unlovable. Sometimes I wish I could be alone without feeling lonely, and then I feel guilty about that.

Objectively, things are better, not worse. I guess one way to look at it is that I'm doing a much worse job of ignoring my long-term problems. While that's not totally a bad thing, it still feels pretty awful.

I'm all right, though. Things are all right.

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This is when a best friend would come in handy, someone to reassure but not be all over you: someone you can feel free to not pay attention to, you know, but they're there. And you'd do it for them, obviously. I sometimes feel like it's harder to find friends like this than it is to find a significant other.

Good luck keeping your head above water. You're not alone, I know you know, but really -- aren't we all? Yep. Even I, surrounded by people 24/7.