I am frequently amazed by the assumptions various friends make about what the assumption about a particular situation "should be". I tend to think this mostly comes down to other people being weird and dysfunctional rather than me being weird and dysfunctional... but who knows. I suppose I've also come to realize that in various areas, my feelings and reactions aren't exactly what "should be"... but they are what they are.

Hmm. This might make more sense if I wasn't rather drunk right now. All I can say is, you're probably not being an idiot. If you're embarrassed about being embarrassed, it suggests you've been being honest. And given that other people's thoughts, feelings and reactions are frequently mysterious and strange, being honest is probably the best thing we can be.